one litre of tears

November 30, 2008 skankyseeeenah

ive never cried so much. okay maybe i have but it’s been long since i last did. im watching this japanese drama about a dying girl; one litre of tears. and it all seem to hit me hard. it’s like as if i opened the gate of tears and it just wouldnt stop flowing. haha but im sad. i really am. the thing about me, i always tend to relate it to my life. and right now, i feel like i havent accomplished anything. people may see me as someone who is full of joy or whatever but no one really knows what im feeling inside. i just need a break from this.

so i went for a run just now. i actually contemplated if i should run. i just decided to cuz i needed to feel good again. anyhow, my stamina is zero. all those trainings that i had for the Will Run and Nike Human Race have gone to waste. maybe. probably. guess it’s back to running.

i need smthg new.

but i miss my bestie. ex bestie?