i finally met up with the girls on friday. dinner was rather simple but the company was awesome. things never changed with them. the bitchy vibe and sarcasm still live amongst us. i think thats the best part of it all. once a bitch, always a bitch aye girls? i love y’all!

so anyway im expecting my period which explains for the instability of hormones. i am not feeling much of the effect but my friends are. and surprisingly, theyre the only two feeling it. could it be that the reason why im like this is beyond the hormone change? i have noo idea. but i do havta admit i havent been myself and im sorry. i cant help it. i cant help this feeling and i dont know why. whenever you ask if im okay, i obviously will say that i am cuz friends lie. they fuckin ass do. if i ask a friend if im fat and she says no, shes lying! so im concluding that friends do lie. about almost everything, in fact, so as not to hurt others. so if i say youre pretty, you probably arent. hahaha! ok shut up.

totally instable state of mind.

i might just breakdown anytime.

anytime.

anywhere.

2 comments September 20, 2008

i just feel like blogging. ive been having some mixed feelings lately. i felt pretty weird today. i feel like im easily irritable nowadays. okay, when am i not, you may ask. but it’s different. cuz every little thing that a person does annoys the hell out of me. sadly, it’s happening with my close friends too. i feel bad, to think that my loved ones are annoying lil bitches. haha. ooops? it aint my fault. the hormones are coming. real real soon. but anyway so much has happened over the last few weeks.

1. i did something, ok well more than one thing, that was out of the norm. ive never done it. but technically, i didnt do it. it happened. i couldnt stop it. i felt so damn helpless. i didnt wanna continue. i tried to stop. but… but… i wasnt in control. it felt like a dream. it felt like a fantasy. something i never thought could happen. esp the place where it happened. i swear you’d laugh in shock if you knew. yea, if only you knew. but you dont so too bad. heh. but just for the record, im still a virgin. may God bless me!

2. prelims finally ended three weeks back. it past so fast. results arent fantastic. but i improved which is a good sign. if i work hard, i’d definitely be able to make it. but how well i do it depends solely on how hard i work. im already feeling the stressed when i heard about the awesomastic bombastic results my cousin from tpjc got. almost straight As. it kinda dampened my spirit. the whole comparing of results once it’s released is gonna happen. im just hoping history wont repeat. everytime i think about it, it spurs me on to work even harder. but i hate the competition esp when it’s between cousins. dont even mention about competition amongst my peers. im feeling it already. but im going with my own pace, if i suddenly decide to sprint, then we’ll see. haha this whole studying period will bring me to my next point.

3. i was feeling down in school just now. i didnt talk much in the morning. the blues is really getting into me. i was just thinking about my birthday. my bday last year was well spent with my loved ones. excluding my family and my close friends in jc. it was the best so far. but this year, im gonna have the most depressing and dull one. i have all the rights in this fuckin world to complain. my bday is gone this year. but if it is worth sacrificing, i wont sulk, promise! if it means good results. and hey, i’d celebrate after As right? right? man, i have no idea what my parents have in store for me next year. only God knows. then again, my parents make wise decisions for me. so all’s good.

im gonna do some studying now even though im dead tired. see y’all.

Success is the ability to go from failure to failure without losing your enthusiasm.

- WInston Churchill

Add a comment September 17, 2008

i wasnt supposed to blog but i read gui’s blog. i feel so bad now. haha you know i didnt do it on purpose. you know i didnt do it cuz i dont like you as you know for sure youre always in my overcrowding heart. hahah. and who knows maybe you might just get a super nice one, so so much nicer than youknowwhose! hahaha. ok whoops. i just hate to make someone upset. esp when im not conscious of it. heh. the princess would like to apologise sincerely to gui. (: im so totally forgiven man!

i will blog later, maybe. i need the emo mood. hahah im too happy, for now.

Add a comment September 12, 2008