thunder

August 10, 2008 skankyseeeenah

im blogging again? is that a good sign? well, maybe. but it’s 3 in the morning now and i have no idea what im doing up and awake. though i havta admit that it is a pretty awesome time to blog cuz you feel like you own the world. yay for seeeenah! heh. right anyways. it was national day. and in my 17 years of life, i never felt so doomed before. national day used to be a pretty exciting day where i would normally make plans to watch the fireworks. but it was different last night. i was stoned. i heard the fireworks though. and it gave me a sad feeling. this sad feeling that i wasnt able to watch it with anyone. not because i didnt want to but because no one actually asked me out. i have no idea why i always drown myself in self pity. it’s funny if you think about it. i do feel sad for me. oh cheer up seeenah! lol. these past few days, or even weeks. ive been trying to put on a great smile. i settled for just a smile. cuz i cant help this feeling. the feeling of emptiness. i dont feel complete. i dont feel contented. i dont feel like ive achieved anything. even though i try to sound happy, even though i try to be happy, the person deep deep deeeep down within me isnt. shes sad. and alone. and confused. everything a girl never ever wanted. but why am i feeling this way? maybe cuz ive not entirely gotten over him, though i keep telling myself hes history. maybe cuz the person i want isnt here. i dont even know who i want actually. i have a description of him though. haha. maybe i can only find him in heaven. =P so i guess right now, this moment. im not gonna feel sad. ok i ll try not to be! sheesh. i just havta enjoy each and every moment of my precious time spent with my books. cuz it’s mugging, mugging, mugging all the way honay!

good night.

 

I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyes
I want a simple explanation
For what I’m feeling inside
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there’s a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you’re unlike any other?
You’ll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don’t wanna ever love another
You’ll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

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